hot heat

its monday afternoon. it feels likei have been here much longer and i can only imagine what its going to feel like after a month. i have freinds here that are french so its great because we can speek french together and nobody understands!
This girl Lizzie made a good point that you are using so many senses and its so hot that by the end of the day you are so exahusted. except its hard to sleep because of the heat. i dont feel like i am sleeping heavy eaither because the slitest noise or anything wakes me up. maybe my brain things i am in danger. Lizzie and I spent the whole day wandering around Delhi. We had drank like 3 liters of water by the afternoon and didnt have to pee. it all comes out of our sweat. there is a girl that hadnt poo'd for a whole week but that is because the food isnt... well its rice and curry - no meat and very little bread.
Lizzie and i evtualy had to go into any restuarnt that had air conditioning and i ordered 2 cokes cause we werent getting enough sugar.
there is a mouse in our room and a lizard. before i left to come here the water backed up in both bathrooms of mostly toilet water. the arangments are very nice though and its like a girls dormatory cause there are now about 12 girls sharing 3 rooms and two bathrooms but we get by fine so far.
i need to by a journal to remember all this stuff.
anyway no photos because i didnt bring a cord but i dont have a cord anyway cause i just put the memory stick in my computer.
there is so much to say but its hard cause it would be better said in person.
i am glad its only one month though. some of these girls are doing it for like 3 months! but i think i am actually getting used to the heat...
everyone stares at us and we have been followed many times.. some girls are even asked to be in photos of complete strangers. the white skin is rare here. they said i would get a lot because i am blonde which is more rare.
i wiped my face yesterday cause of the sweat and the tissue was all dirty.
ok blech
its hot
this internet place is like an aquarium shop

india

i am here! at the slowest internet. so slow that if i make a typing mistake it will cost money to corect it. but i found it after going down all the wrong street. i met a girl from england and she is on the computer too. we sign languaged our way here imitating typing and drawing a box in the air.
its hot. like contant moisture onmy skin that sort of burn cause its salty after a while.
the flight was great as the plane was empty and i met a french girl who is going to Bombay to study for a year! well we took a full row and tried to sleep but i failed at that somewhat. but i got her information incase i need to run away somewhere she is living in an apartment there so that could be cool but we will see.
right now i am staying at a place till monday when they drive us to the orphanage where i will be sleeping. i dont know what it looks likeor what its like. everything from here on is all suprises. i dont know when i will have internet access next. it may be only once a week if at all. i dont know if i will actually buy a si card for my phone but if i do its an eaiser way for mom and dad to reach me. i must go now as time is up.

annie

prepare

my bags have been tightly packed like a tetris game!
I leave paris at 7pm friday. i have been asked how i feel and honestly i dont know how to answer it. i really honestly dont know what to expect.
my last week has been lovely as the weather here is beautiful but at the same time so hot. My skin by the afternoon is so sticky. Nicole and I spent a lot of time together as her boyfriend was out of town so I spent the night at her place every night. We sat in front of her kitchen window and talked than ended most nights by passing out in front of a movie. We layed in the sun most afternoons and visited the Saint Germain pool which was a let down as it was super crowdy with screaming children and the only pool was inside which we took one look at and decided to just shower and continue our sun bathing outside.
Nathalie is out of town just for tongiht so i had the boys to myself. we made pizza for dinner and nataniel and i finished the book we were reading - Witches. I didnt realize it at first but this is also the movie i watched as a little girl with the witches who turn children into things. I vaguly remembered scenes from it. I tried to find it for nataniel to watch but with no luck.

so in India i will have limited internet access as I am not bringing my computer. I decided to bring my digital camera but will be keeping a close close eye on it.
i will try to call some of you before i leave friday.
much love

annie

merde

Ok so it won't let me put my pictures in order on this computer... but it goes from the bottom up. Nicole and I spent a lovely afternoon/evening in paris on the weekend of music weekend - there is music all over Paris for free. But we didnt manage to see very much...

The sun was out and we enjoyed a bottle of wine on the grass in front of the Tour Efile. We got invited to sit with a group of french people but not two seconds after we sat down two of their dumb ditty women were not happy about this and right in front of Nicole and I saying "non! n'est pas d'accord!" and some other french shit. They asked us where we were from and if we understood french than asked us to leave. The man that invited us was hanging his head in shame. Nicole and I walked away confused and dumbfounded as these women were acting like 12 year olds when they had to of been in their 30's.

Anyway. I ended up leaving my keys to the house at my friends house that we visted which I only discovered when I got to my gate to open it. Soraya (the 'cook') lives above the garage so I banged furously at her door and threw small pebbles at her window. Just at the second I realized she couldnt be home and was going to give up and sleep in the garden, voila! she arrived in a car and I hugged her many times. She fed me chocolate and gave me her keys... however I had locked the door to my bedroom as the cat sleeps on my pillow when I am not there which causes a restless nights sleep so I had to sleep in Julias room.

Quiet an eventfull night. I love Nicole.

less than two weeks!!!!!!

Annie

update

I have not posted anything but this is because there is really nothing happening except for me being encredibly anxious to leave and go to India. I am also really bored. I could go into Paris but its a hassle and I cannot stay long because I have to work. The weather is teasing everyone where it will be shit weather for days than all of a sudden its beautiful and hot and you think its going to last than it rains for 5 days straight. lame.
I had a funny dream the other night - in the dream I was friends with a person who was friends with a person who was having a HUGE party that everyone wanted to go to but only certain people could and I was invited.
But I had to babysit so I couldnt go.
This dream was caused because I have been working too much the same thing over and over and over and it is wearing out my sainity I fear...
But yes only two weeks!
I got all my shots/jabs for India (3 little bastards) and tons of medication, sprays, ointments bla bla bla.
In my "depression" or Lull -which may be dramatic - I have bought tons of Lillies for my bedroom. They smell really great and are really beautiful.
Again I have no computer so I really cannot call anyone with my skype or recieve phone calls. I did try again to plug in my cord and after turning it around severel times, moving my computer to different parts of the bed, tilting it, kissing it... I found POWER. but than a few minutes later I moved on the bed and it popped out or something, when I touched the bit that goes into the computer it almost burnt me! This is not good right? thats like super hot and shouldnt burn you. Well so I am scared to attempt again. So I will leave it and save the battery till I leave for India to call and say goodbyes. I will be SANS electronics. But I havnt yet decided if I should bring my digital camera yet. The benefit is that I can take tons of photos. But I dont want to bring things I would be sad to loose - like if I take tons of photos than it gets lost or stolen... that would hurt.
Nicole gave me her ancient camera, I think I had the same one when I was five. So this way I will buy film and if it gets stolen I will still have the previous film!
cool
ok
I will post again before I leave

much much much love

again

No more computer again. I messed up the battery cord again by never unplugging it... it just won't charge my computer... theres no point in trying to fix it since in 3 weeks I will go to India and not bring my comptuer anyway.
But I have the families computer - I just wont have access to skype.

I have a back up battery that I am useing now but I am going to save it for the week before I leave for India to call those of you who know I will call.
love
love
love

annie

CC

"Tell me, was it just ill health that makde you do waht you did?"
"That and..."
"And what?"
shrug. "The utter futility of everything. I see it even in flowers, hear it in music. All life aimless, without meaning."
"What do you want a meaning for? Life is a desire, not a meaning. Desire is the theme of all life! It makes a rose want to be a rose and want to grow like that. And a rock want to contain itself and remain like that"

"Why are you smiling like that?"
"your imitation of a rose and a rock".


-Charlie Chaplan- Limelight